Dad's Stroke

 Dad seems to have had a stroke. Susie went to find him when he didn't show up. He was in the yard attempting to go milk his goats. His arm right arm dangled uselessly at his side. He attempted to talk but his words wouldn't come out like he wanted. Sometimes he could get it said and other times it was gibberish. Susie called me and I went down to see what was going on. He was leaning against the tree. He looked so old. Tears formed in his eyes. He wiped them away with his good hand as he attempted to tell us what was going on. I asked him if he wanted to go to the doctor. "No No No" he said, looking alarmed. I know he is  paranoid of the medical profession and probably wouldn't go but I had to try. I told him I wouldn't make him. Esther and Lois were also there. I did the only thing I knew that I could do. I held his limp hand and took one of my sisters hands and we prayed. When we closed our eyes, I had to take a few breaths before I could begin so my voice would not quaver too much and I would not begin crying. We prayed earnestly, knowing that was all we had and dad needed more that physical healing. He needed Gods comfort.
 We attempted to get him to go to Susie's house for the night so we could watch him. "No No No" He says again. When I attempted to walk him to my car he refused. He wanted to go to his house. He seems able to walk fairly well with just a bit of a drag to his right leg.
 We got him inside and sat with him awhile and questioned him about when this had happened. Apparently some time during last night. (he usually-but not always-spends the night at Susie's house and last night he did not) he realized something awful had happened. He was very out of it and unable to do anything. He remained like that for awhile but gradually got better. He let us know he was much better than he had been.
 I keep thinking about how I'm so glad he wasn't taking care of mom alone when this happened. She is totally dependant on our care and would have been in a bad situation if someone hadn't caught it pretty quick. Hopefully dad will get better soon. During this time with mom he has blamed us for making her the way she is because we give her medicine. He used himself as an example of how healthy you can be without it. None of us know what's around the corner and health is a gift God.